Finally today I'm blogging up-to-date, on actual day.
Last night, I managed to have undisrupted sleep without having to wake up middle of the night. However, the light sleeper me couldn't go back to sleep when nurses came to do morning round at 5:30am.
So rise and shine! I washed up and went out to do some walking exercise round and round the reception area at about 6am.
After breakfast, I started to google on some headwear/headgear ideas for the upcoming chemotherapy. I found this site http://www.headcovers.com which looks promising. How I came to this, was when I took the courage to ask Nurse T yesterday, if hair loss is a guarantee for all breast cancer patients. And the answer is Yes!
Then I had this idea of shaving the head bald before starting the chemotherapy treatment. Nurse T strongly encouraged me to do so, as she was sharing her other patients experience. Most devastating moment was when her patients saw the losing hair...
I'm 99% positive in doing so, as soon as I have the confirmation of treatment schedule from Dr H. So I wanna buy at least 1 nice headwear as a start, to cheer me up :)
Back to the website, the founder of the website was a cancer patient too, and she fought almost 15 years against it. Her story was inspiring, but I didn't like how she finally lost the battle. It was a victorious journey, as she gets to see her children growing up and attending their graduation. But deep inside me, I was questioning, can't one defeat cancer totally? And just grow old.. beautifully in life?
I felt crushed...
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Picking up myself again from the negative thoughts, there's one great thing to celebrate today. My daughter got balloted into our choice of school. And yay to that! The school has a reputation as the 2nd good school in the neighbourhood, and that would also means an easy entry for the little brother in the next 2 years.
Cheering to that, I asked for permission to go down the lobby for a walk in the morning. The nurse provided me with a kimono gown, and I brought my recycle bag to carry the drain inside. Spent almost an hour at the shopping area. People were staring, but good thing was they were also giving way to me, in order not to hit or bang on me. It was a good work-out with the adequate bathe of sun, but it left me a little bit too exhausted upon reaching my ward. I have to learn taking it slow and not pushing the limit too hard.
During lunch time, 2 of my colleagues came visiting with food, reading material and well-wishes again. I thank them for liven up my lunch hour, just like the old days with a lot of catching up and updates.
Then sis-in-law came delivering food cooked with love from mum-in-law. I'm a happy fat woman today! :) The colleagues and sis-in-law 'exchanged shift', so sis-in-law was the one who continued to keeping me accompanied.
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After dinner, I learnt that the auntie cleaner would be taking leave tomorrow (as an eve to her new year), and subsequently will be off duties in the next 2 public holidays. I walked up to her and said thank you for everything. Now I'm going to write a thank you card for her, while waiting for the husband to arrive.
He'll be keeping me company tonight :)
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